Tuesday, May 21, 2002

Hello Again Nasty

Beastie Boys set to record Hello Nasty follow-up

The Beastie Boys are planning to record a new album.

Ananova Story filed: 15:40 Monday 10th December 2001

I am so super duper happy that they're coming out with a new album. I think that I wore out my copy of 'The Sounds of Science' (its a double-cd set). Not to mention the aimple fact that I love them

The album will be the follow-up to their 1998 album Hello Nasty.
The group are to start work in the recording studio early next year.
Beasties DJ Mixmaster Mike told Rolling Stone that the group have been working on new material in New York and Los Angeles.

He said: "Right now, we're at the incubation stage. We've got all the beats in the incubator. They're eggs. We're waiting for them to hatch. Me and Mike D are just like, politicking. We're very moody players. We're moody musicians. You never know what's gonna come out of it."

Monday, May 20, 2002

Star Wars: Attack of the (Mistaken) Clones

Star Wars, Attach of the Clones has only been released in the theaters for 4 days. And movie-mistakes have already found over 40 mistakes. This is so unbelievable to me. I mean, not to say that movies don't have their mistakes. They all do. I remember watching the "Wizard of Oz" looking for the munchkin hanging in the tree and I remember watching "Three Men and A Baby" looking for the 'guy in the window who had killed himself'. I understand that there are flaws. But 40 of them? I honestly think that sometimes these flaws may be used as a marketing appeal. Maybe the producers want to see if they can make a few extra dollars, etc... And we usually fall for it. I know that I certainly am not the only one who looked for the munchin or the window man. Especially considersing that I had heard it fom 'someone who had seen it'. Small mistakes, little marketing tactics, I can get. But did they watch this movie or screen a test audience before they released it? I'm not making ANY claim to be a Star Wars nerd. But I would think that you would want some of those people to watch your movie FOR you before you release it. Maybe the Star Wars fans are a little over the top. Maybe they know a little TOO much about the stories and the books and the movies, etc... But aren't those the same people who make sure that they see your movie right away? Aren't they the ones who buy the dvd even though they saw it like 6 times in the theatre?

Star Wars: Attack of the (Mistaken) Clones
Attack of the Clones (2002)
Directed by George Lucas

According to Movie-Mistakes.com, here are the Most-Mistake Ridden Movies

Rank Film Number of mistakes
1 - The Matrix - 146
2 - Titanic - 135
3 - Spider-Man - 123
4 - Lord of the Rings: Fellowship of the Ring - 117
5 - Jurassic Park - 95
6 - Gladiator - 93
7 - Terminator 2: Judgment Day - 89
8 - Pearl Harbor - 79
9 - Star Wars - 78
10 - Independence Day - 76
11 - Top Gun - 73
12 - The Wizard of Oz - 72
13 - The Mummy Returns - 67
14 - Saving Private Ryan - 67
15 - Austin Powers: Spy Who Shagged Me - 63
16 - Charlie's Angels - 62
17 - Indiana Jones and The Last Crusade - 62
18 - Raiders of the Lost Ark - 62
19 - Return of the Jedi - 60
20 - Braveheart - 54
Attack of the Clones - 42
1. When Padme gets her back scratched she seems to bleed. Even though she is wearing all white, and the scratches seems to be deep, her white top remains squeaky clean during the rest of the movie and does not get dirty from her wound.
2. How is it that one slash on Amidala's back ripped off the entire midriff of her shirt, and both of her sleeves?
3. When Anakin is fighting the geonosis guards in the droid factory, he does a backwards roll to avoid being hit, while doing so he rolls right on one of the molten pieces of metal on the conveyor belt...
4. When Anakin jumps off the speeder when they are chasing Zen the assassin and drops to land on Zen's craft, you can see a bulge in the back of his costume that is obviously the shackle which the cable that is holding him is attached to.
5. On Tatooine when Anakin first gets on to the swoop bike, two legs which the bike is standing (hovering) on is visible. This is even so while he is racing along tatooine landscape. These legs are no longer visible when he returns with Shmi.
6. During the sequence where Obi-wan goes to meet Yoda regarding the abscence of Kamino from the Jedi Archives, look closely at the collection of children Yoda is training. While most are human, there is one that is alien, with a reptilian face of dark skin. He sure moves fast, because at first he is at the back in the centre of the group of trainees, in the next shot he is at the fron of the group of trainees, and by the end of the scene, he is on the far left, yet we never see him, or any of the other children, move.
7. After the fight scene between Obi-Wan and Jango Fett at Kamino, as Jango runs up the walkway into his ship, the door closes from above and knocks Jango in the head as he enters. I'm fairly sure that who shot is computer generated, so it must have been deliberate - a little nod to the Storm trooper in Star Wars, perhaps?
8. After landing at Geonosis to save Obi-Wan, Anakin and Padme have a brief discussion in the ship next to C3PO and R2D2. Then they walk down the small hall and exit the ship to the right. R2 and C3PO then have a discussion. A few moments later R2 and 3PO leave the ship...but exit to the left.
9. When Yoda and Mace listen to the Senate voting Palpatine emergency powers, Yoda starts on the top ledge nearest the Senate chamber. When the shot changes he has moved down onto a different ledge which wasn't there before.
10. In the arena battle, the creature that looks like a crab is a complete StarCraft rip off of the Lurker - click here to see it.
11. Just a small visual error on behalf of computer animation. On Geonesis, after Anakin and Senator Amidala get out of the ship in the steamvent area. Anakin ducks under a doorway on his way into the droid production factory, but if you look closely, his head goes "through" the doorway a bit. This is most likely due to the fact that the doorway was computer generated onto a blue screen, and "Anakin" didn't duck correctly.
12. In the arena scene, Anakin's pillar already has a chain hanging from the top before he is led to it, however, when he is led to the pillar, the chain is no longer there, and a new one is hoisted to the top by the flying Geonosian guard.
13. When Obi-Wan goes to the water planet and talks to the Prime Minister in his office. The alien is of course computer generated. When the actors do their blue screen work, markers are put up for them to look at so that when the finished shot is done, and the alien is put in, it looks like they're looking at the alien. In this scene, Obi-Wan is clearly not looking at the alien. (On one of the "making of" trailers at starwars.com you can hear George Lucas jokingly say "Eye-lines! I don't care about no stinking eye-lines," and the scene behind him is Obi-Wan talking to the alien...)
14. When C3PO losses his head in the droid factory. He wanders toward the assembly line, filled with droids being fit with heads. Suddenly he is shown stepping into an open spot on the previously full conveyor. Where did this "open space" come from?
15. When Obi-wan tries to apprehend Jango fett, Jango has 2 blasters. What happens to the other one, after it shows one blaster knocked to the ledge?
16. On Tatooine when Anakin first gets on to the swoop bike, two legs which the bike is standing (hovering) on is visible. This is even so while he is racing along tatooine landscape. These legs are no longer visible when he returns with Shmi's body.
17. In the introduction, when text flows across the screen, the words "ten thousand solar systems" appear. Strictly speaking, there is only one Solar system - ours. A star with planets is a "star system", our star is called "Sol", hence, the Solar System. This trivial error is made in many sci-fi films, BUT the Star Wars series has never fallen into this error before. Remember Episode IV, where Leia says something like, "The more you tighten your grip, the more star systems will slip through your fingers" (and that's only one example). So why, why, why has George Lucas allowed such a trivial but irksome error to be made here?
18. Earlier in the movie Padme is packing her luggage to leave Coruscant (while she is talking to Anakin). In one shot she has a red folded garment in her hands and in the next one she is putting some dark stuff into her case.
19. When Obi-Wan is on Geonosis secretly listening to Count Dooku's plan with the seperatists. If Dooku is such a great Jedi/Sith wouldn't he be able to sense Obi-Wan there listening?
20. When Dooku tries to make the tower fall on Ben and Anakin, why does Yoda struggle so much to levitate it and move it out the way, when in episode V he gives Luke a lecture about things not being heavy for a Jedi?
21. During the scene in which Anakin Skywalker is en route to the Tusken camp in search of his mother, in which he is riding a speeder bike, there is only one sun in the sky. This planet supposedly has two.
22. On Tatooine, Amidala presses a button to retransmit the message from Obi-wan. A moment later, she presses the same button to bring up the map showing Obi-wan's location and the distances between Tatooine and Couruscant. Not only does this same button do double duty, but with one press it knows she wants to show the location of the three planets.
23. When Amidala and some of the clone troopers get blown out of the ship chasing Dooku, later the trooper approaches Amidala and asks about making their way back to the front lines, but Amidala says they should go to the hangar to help Obi-Wan and Ani. How did she know about the hangar, having left the ship quite some time before it arrived at the final destination?
24. When Amidala & Anakin are eating and he cuts her a piece of the fruit and "floats" it back to her, the bite appears in the fruit a split second before she actually eats it.
25. In an early scene with Yoda talking to Mace Windu in the Jedi council room, he sits on his little Jedi throne balancing his hands atop his cane. As the shots change angle, the cane isn't there. To top it off, Yoda's hands remain as if still atop the cane...
26. In the fight scene between Yoda and Count Dooku, Jedi powers crumble part of the roof, which then falls to the floor. Later in the scene, after the hand to hand combat, the roof mess has miraculously vanished - none of it remains on the floor.
27. When Anakin and Padme are standing outside the Lars' house, we see their shadows projected on to the side of the house (with Anakin's shadow looking worryingly like Darth Vader's). However, in the next shot their shadows have moved about 4 feet to the left.
28. When Palpatine is speaking to the Jedi very near the beginning, the ships in the suspended invisible freeways on the background are always going on the same pattern. Notice that there is an elongated ship with a large rear tip, and then two smaller ships always seem to catch it at the same time. This goes on for about 3 minutes.
29. In the bar scene on Coruscant, when Anakin is tracking Zam Wessel through the bar, his Jedi braid changes sides - it is on the left side of his head in a shot where he is seen from behind. At all other times in the movie, the braid is on the right side of his head.
30. At the beginning of the scene where Anakin and Amidala are getting off the "train", R2-D2 is struggling down the stairs some way behind them. Their conversation flows continuously, but as soon as Anakin says "we've got R2 with us", R2-D2 is handily immediately behind them.
31. When Anakin is getting ready to ride off after his mother, you can see a small pile of boxes right next to his shadow that is being cast on the side of the Lars' house. Amidala comes out and we see their shadows, and the boxes have gone. Then when Anakin gets on the hoverbike and rides off, the boxes return.
32. In the scene on Geonosis where the droids are closing in on the remaining Jedi, the camera keeps cutting close and cutting back out. In only two of these changes is a blue Twilek visible. She has disappeared in the other camera angles.
33. As Padme and Anakin are about to leave their ship to save Obi-Wan right after landing in the exhaust shaft, she puts on a shawl-like piece of cloth over her shoulders facing forward. When they exit the ship, the shawl is suddenly backwards, with the two ends hanging behind her instead of in front of her.
34. At the start of the movie, when the ship on the platform explodes, it visibly knocks off one of the nubian fighters in the lower left. However, there still is the one Padme's security officer was in, and in a different shot, there are two side by side, equaling 4 fighters, but the very first few shots only show 3 escorting the senator's ship.
35. When Anakin and Padme enter the exhaust shaft, they land on a convenient landing pad. Why is there a landing pad in an exhaust shaft?
36. When Anakin is fighting Count Dooku, he takes Ben's blue light sabre in his left hand, in the next shot he is holding it in his right hand.
37. When Anakin and Padme are disguised as refugees? and are eating their meal in the hold of a ship with many other passengers. Padme leans forward to get some food, when the camera angle changes she is sitting upright in her seat against the chair back.
38. In the scene where Anakin and Padme are about to eat, Anakin uses the force to levitate her pear-like fruit to his plate. He then proceedes to cut it pretty much in half. However, the piece he sends over to her is much smaller than half - we even see the remainder of the pear on his plate which is substantially larger than it was in the shot before.
39. When Anakin is crying on Tattooine, he starts to cry and the tears are running down his face, but then they disappear and his face is completely dry, then there are more tears, and the same thing happens again.
40. As Anakin and Amidala are landing on Tattooine, the sun on the set and the sun reflection off their ship are in different directions. The double sun would not account for this, as they are not far enough apart.
41. When Anakin and Obi-Wan are going up the lift to meet Padme, the lift is on the right hand edge of the building so when they get out they can physically only turn left. however they get out, meet Jar-Jar, and turn right.
42. When Anakin is on Tatooine talking to Watto, there are two of Watto's worker-droids visible in the background between them (behind Anakin, screen left). In front of these droids is a box, presumably theirs to carry. In the very next shot, which shows Anakin leaving with Watto, the droids are still there, but the box is nowhere in sight.

US states ban junk food from schools

So I know that if I was in high school or maybe even in grammar school, I would be totally pissed off about this. But given the fact that now it honestly has nothing to do with me anymore, I can say that I think that this is a good idea. I can't remember what television show was on where I saw a McDonalds and a Taco Bell in the SAME high school. And I thought that bacon, egg and cheeses were bad?!? That was one of the WORST things that I could get when I was in high school (and I thought nothing can change THAT much in 5 years LOL).

US states ban junk food from schools

Story filed: 17:51 Monday 20th May 2002

US schools are banning junk food from the canteen in an attempt to tackle the rise in teenage obesity.
The country's two biggest states, Texas and California, will stop selling soft drinks, sweets and chips cafeterias from the start of the next academic year. School districts in many other states have already outlawed the sale of junk food and replaced it with soy-based burgers, grilled chicken, salads and fruit juices. The number of severely obese children in the US has doubled since 1980. Some 13% of children aged 6 to 11 years and 14% of youngsters aged 12 to 19 years were overweight in 1999.

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Saturday, May 18, 2002

10 Things You Don't Know About Women

I personally thought that this was a riot!! I agree that makeup does get people 'high'. Its the same thing with shoes.

10 Things You Don't Know About Women

By Sarah Silverman

May 2002, Volume 137, Issue 5
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Sarah Silverman, a comedian and actress, stars in the new Fox sitcom Greg the Bunny.

The assignment is "Ten things men don't know about women." I am the worst person to write this. Get Nora Ephron. Get Mim Udovitch. But me? Look, if you want a piece on the difference between men and women, you can pick one up next to the cash register at any bookstore. (I think computers write them now.) But as I thought about it, I realized it's up to me, as a writer, to find a unique angle. Then I found it: total and complete honesty. That's right, the following are, truly, the ten things that men don't know about women.
  1. We go to the bathroom together because we're doing coke.

  2. We want to cuddle after sex because we're fucking freezing.

  3. Makeup gets you high.

  4. The "menstrual cramp" is a made-up phenomenon. Like the "Holocaust."

  5. Not all women like crappy, sappy movies. Unfortunately, many do. Which is why they get made. So, ultimately, you can actually blame women for the perpetuation of mediocrity in film.

  6. Vaginas have a hidden pocket for change. (Not coins, social change.)

  7. Our eyes are up here.

  8. We hate our thighs because, interestingly enough, they opposed our right to vote.

  9. Women who get boob jobs "for themselves" also give blow jobs "for themselves."

  10. The labia minora is not Hanukkah paraphernalia.

Cuss Words

Ok ok I know I should watch it with the 'potty mouth' thing. I wonder if Joe Rogan has seen this one? Actually, I can see him writing this for some reason. But this article is too funny. I wonder if I can use this as my mantra?

Why I Love Cuss Words
I try to keep it clean, but sometimes a good fuck! or shit! provides just the release I need. Say you drop something heavy on your foot. "Gosh darn it!" doesn't cut it. And why should it? Language Hitlers say anyone who swears doesn't have sufficient mastery of the language. Bullshit. Invoke Shakespeare when someone cuts you off in traffic and see how fast you get through town.
Some folks can remember when they first heard the word "fuck" or "shit." I only remember being convinced that saying fuck would send me straight to hell, where you can cuss to your heart's content as demons stick red-hot pokers up your ass. At one point I was such a twisted goody-too shoes that I blackened out the single instance of the word fuck in a book of monologues by Steve Martin. I've been fucking overcompensating every since.
Swearing, cussing, taking the Lord's name in vain — all have been frowned on for centuries. George Washington told his troops to refrain from "the foolish and wicked practice of profane cursing and swearing." OK, George. You get butchered by better equipped Brits and watch your fingers and toes fall off in the cold. Can you hear those poor troops mumbling after the general rode off? "Fuck you, ya wigtop, and the horse you rode in on."
As part of his research on cursing, professor Tim Jay (author of Cursing in America and What To Do When Your Kids Talk Dirty) assigned his students to count "bad" words in the movies. The findings are not surprising: Movies during the Eighties contained an average of 81 cuss words, up from 24 during the Sixties and 1.5 in films before that. Is that an indication of a decline in our society, or is Hollywood making better movies? War is not some goddamned action-adventure movie. Even in classics like Gone With the Wind, do you think Scarlett O'Hara was shaking her fist at the sky saying, "Goshdarnit, I've lost everything and might die here of starvation?" Hell no. She was spitting, "Fuck them Yankees." But nobody gave a damn.
What galls me most is how hypocritical the media is when it comes to swear words. Richard Nixon swore like a bat out of hell on the Watergate tapes. But no newspaper had the guts to print the transcripts with the expletives not deleted. (Not only was Nixon an asshole, he had no talent using cuss words.) Reinhold Aman, a former university professor and editor of Maledicta Press, calls it "newspaper censorshit" so publications that quote him have to print it as "newspaper censorsh—." He wonders, as I do, why so many publications spell fuck as f—-. What is that? Find? Food? Fork? The newsweeklies will show its prissy readers graphic photos of mutilated Rwandans, but if someone says, "This is bullshit," it causes a ruckus. If you are going to disguise words that might offend some readers, what about h—-s—ual, ab—tion or s-x?
Once you start looking for censorship, it pops up everywhere. Entertainment Weekly once printed an interview with Howard Stern and used dashes to disguise words like asshole and fuck. But in the same article, the magazine included a graphic description of a Stern writer sticking his finger up someone's butt. When a Republican congressman called Bill Clinton a "scumbag," the New York Times didn't print the word. Instead, they called it a "vulgarity for a condom" (?) and later "a euphemism for a despicable person." That narrows it down.
More recently, the journalism review Brill's Content began censoring "naughty" words. In one issue, it quotes a court document: "Hotseattle also asked if I had seen a picture of his naked c--k." Is that how the affidavit printed the word? Probably not. So the quote isn't accurate. In past issues, this hardhitting magazine has also censored fuck and bullshit (the latter in an essay by investigative journalist Bob Woodward). I wrote editor in chief Steve Brill to ask about the policy. He told me that these words be blocked out because, "My kids read my magazine." Maybe he should call it Brill's Children's Content.
My favorite example of prudery has to be when Men's Health — a magazine read entirely by people with penises — quoted Robin Williams explaining how to save a stand-up routine. If all else fails, he said, "go for the d—- joke." Can you believe that? A men's magazine afraid of the word dick.
All of this is why, to get to the point, I have launched the Society to Highlight Ingrate Terms (SHIT). Just as the National Rifle Association believes that a good gun owner is an educated gun owner, SHIT reminds its members that cuss words relieve a tremendous amount of tension, but only if used with respect for their power. SHIT will educate people to use swear words properly. For instance, shit is an all-purpose word; cussers should use it when failing an exam or watching a favorite team cost you $20 by blowing a huge lead. However, if you use lose more than $20, that's a fuck. If you're dealing with the IRS, that might be a shit or a fuck, depending on who did your taxes; if you're dealing with the FBI or ATF, that's always a fuck.
Among other cuss words, asshole is good for the boss or moron coworkers or in-laws, but motherfucker should be reserved for more weighty situations, such as when a mugger who shoots you even after you give him your wallet, or you realize you're slipping off the edge of the Grand Canyon as you back up for a family photo. I hear motherfucker invoked for the simplest of transgressions, such as a foul during a basketball game. No, no, no! "Fuck you" will suffice, or maybe "What the hell?" Motherfucker is a fairly serious accusation.
Membership in SHIT is free, but we do expect members to uphold certain standards. Children must be encouraged to use cuss words properly, or not at all (if a toddler wants to say shit when he falls on his face, he'll say it. Give him time). We do not swear at police officers, because they have guns. And although swear words exist in all languages, SHIT uses the English standard. Members are, however, permitted to say "Pardon my French."
Should you lack the control to use cuss words only when warranted, you may suspend your membership by saying aloud in front of two witnesses, "Fuck SHIT." Remember to burn your membership card.

Friday, May 17, 2002

Human Head for Sale

Killing to sell someone's body parts?!? What the hell is the matter with these people? And the fact that the man 'hacked' off the head with a 'knife'. That must have been some knife. And what do you do with a hacked off head? 'some traditional healers believe are essential ingredients for certain kinds of medicine' I want to know what kind of medicine this is so that I never have to go to that doctor.
Human Head for Sale
JOHANNESBURG (Reuters) - A South African police sting operation has bagged a murderer and the human head he was trying to sell for use in traditional medicine, police said on Thursday. Police have in the past uncovered several so-called muti murders of people killed for body parts that some traditional healers believe are essential ingredients for certain kinds of medicine. Police said the head belonged to a 52-year-old man whose headless corpse was found Monday in Krugersdorp. The head had been hacked off with a knife. "A trap was set whereby a 23-year-old man was arrested who had attempted to sell the head for 10,000 rand ($980) for muti purposes," a police statement said. The arrest was made on Wednesday in Krugersdorp, a town west of Johannesburg. The suspect will appear in court Friday to face a charge of murder. Police said they believed he had stabbed his victim several times before decapitating him.

Thursday, May 16, 2002

P Diddy is #12

Ananova reports P Diddy named one of '20 dumbest' in US

Thursday 27th December 2001

P Diddy has been labelled one of the dumbest people in the US. He came 12th in Mad Magazine's annual list of the country's 20 dumbest people. The rapper was nominated for changing his name from Puff Daddy to P Diddy. The list was topped by the Reverend Jerry Falwell, who blamed the September 11 attacks in part on "abortionists, feminists, gays, and lesbians." Mad's co-editor John Ficarra told Clickmusic.com: "We thought Falwell had reached his personal pinnacle of dumbness a few years ago when he accused the Teletubbies of promoting homosexuality - we underestimated him."

Monday, May 13, 2002

new intro

yesterday turned out to be one of those days that i can honestly day that i couldn't have asked for much more. i went to my mom's house and i gave her her mother's day presents. then we baked cookies and i made a flyer for bob (my stepdad). he's selling his motorcycle. and then we went out to dinner with the family. it was so fun. and maybe that might seem strange to some, but it was actually a good time. then we all went back to mom and bob's for coffee and fresh baked chocolate chip and peanut butter cookies (so yummy). and then i watched a bunch of movies with my mom and hung out and talked about all kinds of stuff from priest scandals to the israel/palestine issues to vietnam and how her brother was there and a lot of other people that she knows.
so today i decided that i was going to give flashmx another try. since i have no 'formal' training in mx, i have been a little intimidated by the format of everything (im totally used to v.5) but for some reason today, i decided that i had to try again. and i did. and im working on a new little intro thingy for this site. so far, so good.
its been all rainy here today. not that that's a bad thing...i love the rain. but i hate the thunder. well, to be a little more specific, my dog hates the thunder. he starts freaking out and looking all around the house for places to hide. and we have no way of calming him down. he just freaks out and shakes. poor doggie.

Wednesday, April 10, 2002

tantrums over shoes

there are certain times in our lives where you just need reassurance. whether it be an old friend or a family member or even writing them into a blog to put on your web site so that your thoughts are out there in the great unknown. just words on page really. I'll be the first one to admit that i was not the nicest of all the girls in high school. some would even say i was a huge bitch. and i know that is not too far from the truth. i don't think that high school is a useful tool for judging one's character. with all the hormones and confusion, i completely understand now what i was feeling then. not to say that i can relate to any of the kids that are in high school, because i honestly think that in five years a lot can change. but thats an entirely separate entry. although i wasn't the nicest person back then, i think that i have changed a lot over the past five years. not to say that it has been all that easy...i mean every once in a while that sixteen year old girl comes out and starts throwing temper tantrums about how she has to be able to return the pair of shoes. but i never apologized to people that i may have hurt. and thinking about it now, i still wont apologize for my actions. not to say that they were justified. but i think that instead of apologizing and saying the words that people have come to take for granted, i put my apologies into actions. and i became a nicer person. my patience is another step that i have to work on. i think that because i have become a nicer person, i feel more of a need for this reassurance from others. and i have to say that i hate that about myself now. i mean, i kind of feel like i have regressed. i feel like i was once this strong-take-no-shit-from-anyone(and I MEAN ANYONE) girl into this young woman who is searching for acceptance into the places that she once thumbed her nose at. aim not talking about trendy bars or up-tight restaurants, but i mean the people that surround me in my life. and even the ones who just pass in and out. i think that right now is one of those times where my words have to go into the great unknown so that i can feel the reassurance that i am so searching for right now. i need to know that at the end of the day that everything will be okay. sometimes i just wish that i was stupid so that i never had the capability to analyze things a billion times over.